1. That English teacher you had that really ‘got
you’.
2. Your Father the first time you saw him fail.
3. The popular kid in class the first time they
included you.
4. The girl you thought would be your girlfriend
who then moved.
5. The cop that took you home when you got lost.
6. The smart-ass sitcom best friend you always
thought was just like you.
7. The doctor that saved your mum.
They say
1. They finally noticed that thing you did, they
are sorry they didn’t before.
2. They know what you’ve been through and think
you handled it well.
3. They were just thinking of you and decided to
call.
4. They only just understood what you were talking
about that time and it struck home.
5. It turned out you were right all along.
6. There was no one else they could talk to about
something this important.
7. They realised they were that one that let you
down.
So
1. You talk for a long time on all the things that
make you sad.
2. You mention the things you’re scared to tell your
wife.
3. You explain how it never felt right, they
understand.
4. They help you understand where things went
wrong.
5. You confess about the thing, and cry.
6. You give them the secret ambition you never
mention to others.
7. You admit the invisible distrust of one you
love.
But slowly you sense
1. Some kind of second meaning in their words.
2. Unlikely coughs that sound like strangled
laughs.
3. Their eyes on yours when yours are somewhere
else.
4. A vagueness in their relation of events.
6. Their gaze flicks to an unseen audience.
7. Their eyes don’t smile when they do, and do
when they should not.
And then
1. They look you in the eye and slowly dribble
bloody phlegm.
2. They stand behind you, grab your hands and
giggle hysterically into your neck.
3. They bite you, draw blood breathing hard and
don’t let go.
4. They kick you savagely in the back of the knee.
5. They throw the contents of your pockets in the
street.
6. They grab your lower lip in their fist and
shake.
7. They pull a clump of hair right out of your
head.
And you can do nothing because
1. You told them everything, even the secrets.
2. There is no-one you know here and people look
at you like you are dead.
3. Fighting would mean admitting it is real.
4. The authorities told you not to call again.
5. It’s all coming back and you are there on the
floor in the rain again.
6. They know about you and others know as well.
7. You suddenly realise you can die right now.
Finally
1. They beat you bloody, laughing out the things
you said.
2. They choke you to the ground, as you black out
you see your own face smile.
3. They become someone weaker and smaller than
you, and cry out for help. Faces turn.
4. They say they will
return, and disappear.
5. They double you and
start screaming as they point.
6. They knife you and
ease your body to the ground, whispering your address.
7. They grab hold of you
screaming out your name, claiming terrible things.
what the hell patrick
ReplyDeleteSends chills down my spine... excellent!
ReplyDeleteSOS, trapped in Patrick's brain, send arsenic.
ReplyDeleteI'm going to go cry in my room now
ReplyDeleteBut slowly you sense... is missing an entry. I offer:
ReplyDelete5. That the pauses before they speak are becoming uncomfortably long
AAaaaaccepted
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