(It's more fiction.)
Someone
smashes in the back of my skull, I see my brains hit the water before I do. Sink
into it. Dark for a while. Fish eat my eyes, then nips of skin. Once they’re
inside it goes quickly. Six months or so till the last rags of flesh are gone
and then I sit up.
Something
must have broken off in there I think. Can’t find it. Thin bulge of bone above
the spine is all cracked. Soft inside. I worry, brains? But I look in the white
basketwork that’s now my hands and see only mud and fat jubilant worms. I put
my hand back there and scoop around. Mud oozes from my eye sockets and nose,
drips down my chin, then my fingers poke out of my eyes.
Stop
that.
I sit
up slow, ribs full of mud. Can I stand? I do. Rich black stuff seeps out.
I am
in the river. Its day. Everything around me is alive. Bees are active in the
flowers. A kingfisher blurs the air into a hovering gem. The birds are loud and
they don’t notice me. Can’t see far, sight blurs at fifty strides. I’m in the
water but I don’t feel cold.
I feel
little. Like sitting at home in a silent room and recalling swimming the
morning before. The memory of the water over skin, that’s what I feel, but as
it happens. The last night I remember his fingers over mine, but that flesh is
gone. Sight comes directly and the chuckling water echoes oddly in my muddy
skull but touch is just a ghost.
I try
walking and fall. Under the water it’s clear and dark and I can see everything.
I crawl towards the deep centre of the stream where the water is strong and let
it carry the mud from my now-active bones. It slowly plumes away like smoke
from burning clothes and leaves me clean, white and empty within. I roll on my
back and look up at the sunlight rippling on the surface of the stream.
Sky-framing tree-limbs undulate oddly like hands in the optical mix. I remember
near-blonde hair.
I
could just wait here. I don’t need to eat, I don’t need to breathe. I could just
hold here for a year through winter’s crystal tomb then let the torrent of
spring take me away to the sea.
I
wonder where he is now and I stand back up and look for my sword in the mud.
The
sword is there. Pitted and black and ready to break at any time, but in one
piece. It holds an edge of sorts. Cloak and clothes and boots are partly gone.
I sieve the mud and find some coins. Lay it all to dry and look at where I
died. I try to remember the steps behind me and the position of each man. Who
killed me?
Yeo
was there, he brought me to the place (never trust a man called ‘Yellow’ by his
friends.) Yanez (Julio to me) was by the horses, I think. Kulwar Wolters, a
gloved man I suspect to be a Cliothaum, can and could be anywhere.
Cliothaumy’s
an illegal skill, rare and hard to learn.
It lets you burn memory to twist the world in certain ways. The more you
use it, the less you know why. Magic never gives you anything back, there’s
always a trick. Kulwar Wolters used it rarely, if at all. But his fingertips were
burnt, I think.
They
took the Isogyre, of course. That’s why,
but who? It had to be them all.
No-one called out. They all saw it done and none of them called out so it had
to be them all, even Julio. Which means everything he whispered to me was a
lie.
Up
till now I hadn’t been as excised as
you’d think about the death of Hans Thoemmes. I sat up with his memories, in
his bones, but it seemed to me it happened to another man and I was something
else. Like a long waiting. But now, thinking about Julio K, Yanez with the
near-blonde hair and the quiet joke he always had around him, I feel the memory
of a heartbeat in my chest and the recollection of a thumping vein.
I pick
up my sword and walk.
After
a few steps I come back for the rags of my cloak and clothes.
------
The
City of the Yellow Eye is long and lean, and blinks just like its namesake, in
the moon. When the wind changes, the mirror-whiskered kites that every building
flies on pain of death, shift, and the mirrors that they carry gleam as one
with the reflection of whatever fills the space between the stars.
Once,
(it’s said) a God loved it and the City stole his heart, which was of ruby and
of gold, and used the wealth to build itself anew on the opposite side,
escaping a terrible fate. At night the God still searches for the City of the
Yellow Eye. They fly the mirrors in the dark to blind his sight.
Which
all makes no sense at all, but there the ruined city is one the opposite bank,
like the corpse of a twin found in the dawn, and any house that fails to fly a
mirror is burnt down by maddened crowds.
I slip
into the river some way out and let it carry my bones down past the city in the
day. At night I crawl out and walk without fear on the wrong side for the first
time. I watch the living city and wait.
For a
dead man to find a liar in the city of his kin is like hitting falling leaves
by throwing stones. You must predict the fall, and wait. Rags can make me a
begging leper, and my sword a kind of staff. I listen for the footfalls of his
slow descent from wealth. I catch them in flurries of talk falling from the
doors of gambling houses and bars. Each time I orbit closer. I find him by water.
It’s night.
I feel
I have a voice to say his name and so I do.
“Yellow.”
He’s
looking at the stars in the water and starts like a faun.
“What?
River-creeper, malingering mugger-man? Oh. Or poor un-warned one eaten early by
the jaws of time? Did I, do I, know you in decent flesh before your regrettable
wasting? You know my name-of-the-streets? Fear not friend here’s a coin for you,
of Gold, come close, you see I do not blanch from your curse, we are all fated
you see and may not brook it. Do I know you?”
The
hand without a coin is reaching for a blade beneath his cloak. I pull the rags
from my face.
“You
know me Yellow Yeo.” I say.
“Hhnnn”
His
eye-dots dawn blackly and fast. The big muscle in his thigh begins to twitch.
“The
Susjin contract. The Isogyre.” I say.
“Hhh
Hans. Hans Thoemmes.” He replies.
“The
tomb with things like me. Escape, in
which I save your life. A body in the river in the hills that wasn’t there,
then was.”
“We
gave it to Webb-Ivory. It doesn’t work.”
Generations
ago Gupta Webb-Ivory turned Cliothaum for unstated reasons and burnt his way up
the crime-ladder of the City of the Yellow Eye in the space of a year. Unlike
others, he made it stick.
“Guptil?
Oh but it did and it does. I have been waiting on its action, as you see.” I
run my tips across my skinless face.
“Hans.
Hans, how sorry I am to see you so reduced. Was my first thought so distant
from the mark? Leprosy would be ascension I think? You have returned. How like
you, and you are upset.”
“I am
not upset Yellow.”
“Oh
Hans, you were very foolish to trust that pretty boy.”
“Is it
so? Does the knife warn against the empty hand? And yet too late, you see the
cut is made. Please do not doubt my vision in the dark. Keep your hand from
your hilt.”
“You
blame me? I am a coward Hans, you know that! What choice did I have? The three
of them, Yanez, Kulwar Wolters and behind them, Guptil Webb-Ivory. My life! My
family!”
“You
have no family Yellow.”
“Secret!
Hidden in avoidance of just such a threat. I am a pawn! A poor pawn abandoned
and betrayed!”
He
weeps and falls to his knees. But not. He keeps his balance on the balls of his
feet and bends like a spring.
“Yellow,
I only seek one thing..”
Too
late, he draws and swings.
“Die
grave ghoul! Back, simulator!”
I turn
and block on the half-draw from my scabbard of rags. Yellow dances back a step
and a half too far and lunges. He was always fast, and always afraid. I bow my
bones, the blade reaches a half-inch from where my flesh would be. I step-turn
and complete the draw, carry through and hack at his hand where it grasps the
hilt. Fingers hit the river. He doesn’t say much but leaps back holding the
mess. I look at him there for a second. He runs, fast. Always a talent with
Yellow. I pursue.
In my
passing blots of horror spread like ink. A living death, a fleshless man. Time
for me is running out and soon the mob will swarm.
I chase
Yellow to a kiteless block with empty streets. I enter and walk through quiet
suspicious rooms. A door slams. I follow. At the back a door is locked. I kick
it, bounce off. I weigh a fifth of what I did. Fuck this, there’s a window and
I need fear no cut.
I
shatter the glass at a run and fall, fragments in my rags. An open space,
hidden in the centre of the city block. A low, lit pavilion in the dark. Two
men ready outside the door I bounced off, swords drawn, they see what I am and
do not run.
Fast.
One spears me as I rise. I turn and twist the blade caught in my ribs out of
his hand. The second one is thinking and pulls his still-scabbarded sword to
swing its hilt like a bone-cracking maul. I run him through. The swordless man
rushes me. We go down. No muscle sheathes me from harm, a rib cracks as I hit.
He’s heavier, but confused for a second, how to kill me? I grab his throat till
he turns blue, bounce his head off the ground and leave him there asleep. The
dying man is moaning with my black sword in his guts.
“Sorry”
I say “you want me to finish it?”
He
stares at me, panting through his teeth.
“An
exchange then. You keep mine.” I pull his sword from my ribs and go towards the
pavilion.
Kulwar
Wolters is there waiting for me. His bare fingers are black.
“Hans?”
“Kulwar.
You with Webb-Ivory now?”
“Always
was.”
“Right.
And Yanez?”
“You
should have sold out Susjin Hans.”
“I
know. But I like Susjin. You look bad
Kulwar. It give you much?”
“Not
much. Yellow.”
I
realise too late he’s not talking to me. Yellow steps from his hiding place,
bleeding, and flings. A weighted bolas flies. But I can see so much better in
the dark now, and this new sword is razor sharp. I lunge precisely and swing. The
bolas flies apart in the air.”
“Kulwar!”
he screams. Typical Yellow.
“Yellow
fucking Yeo.” Kulwar mutters to himself, he raises his burnt hands.
“Don’t…”
but I’m too late.
A
vertical ribbon of riverwater forms held between his ashy hands. It grows hugely,
like the ground that runs to meet a falling man. It’s the river that they put
me in. It dances across the grass, growing deeper and more real as it comes on.
I see impossible sun-fragments in its rills. Agony shoots through my head. The
water pulls me in and I am caught, suspended in the upward-running strand. I
see Kulwar holding the memory while it burns his hands. Trapping me for the seconds
Yellow needs to reach and tie my limbs. As the knot tightens he lets go and the
river disappears. He has burnt the memory of my murder and now I can never ask
him what he did. He doesn’t know.
“For a
corpse to find a criminal is simple, the two tend to keep company.” Yellow
laughs and kicks my rags.
Kulwar
is looking down on his black hands, and now wrists too.
“Shut
up Yellow. Take him inside.”
They
drag me though some double doors. The Isogyre is here, its black radials
crackling imperceptibly. A man, old and hard, black limbs and charred scarwork
reaching all the way
to his
face. Guptil Webb-Ivory. And a girl, about eighteen, dead, frozen in a
rectangular lattice of ice and living crystal that can only be the product of
deep magic.
Webb-Ivory
looks down at me. “You were Hans Thoemmes.”
“Yes.”
He
turns to Kulwar. “You killed him?”
Kulwar
just stares “I .. I..”
Yellow
breaks in “Mr Wolters is burnt. I
performed the service at the time.”
Kulwar
looks at Yellow like he wants to kill him.
Guptil
turns to me. “Why does it work for you and not for her?” He points to the girl.
“Have
you tried caving her skull in?”
He
rips three fingers off my hand and stamps them to shards.
“Why
for you and not her? That’s what it does. It brings people back. Finding Susjin
cost me. Robbing him cost more. That’s what all this is for. To bring her back.
Fifty years. Waiting. Why you and not her?”
“Where’s
Yanez?”
He
goes to crush my skull.
“Stop!
Stop. I think I know. I think I know why it worked, and when. Who is she?”
Guptil
looks at the girl again “Ivory Weyr”
“Did
you freeze her?”
“I
think so.”
“A
daughter?”
“I
don’t know that any more” Webb-Ivory replies “She has to tell me.”
“Something
changed when I woke up. It was changing for a long time and then a week ago it
went all the way. I woke up and came here. That change is why. What happened a
week ago?”
“Yanez
left.”
“Why?”
Guptil
says “He didn’t like what happened out there. Got flaky. Breakdowns.
Spiralled.” He looks at Kulwar “you spoke to him.”
“Left
in the morning” replies Kulwar “haven’t seen him since. Kept talking about his
life, some mistake, but I don’t know
what.”
There’s
a fragment of window glass between my fingertips. I say “You see Yellow
finishing a man?”
“No.”
says Webb-Ivory
“Then
that’s why it won’t work for her.”
“Why?”
he says.
“You
didn’t kill her and you don’t love her.”
Webb-Ivory
looks at the frozen girl. He’s quiet for a little while. “Makes sense. There’s
always a trick to it.”
That's a good read.
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